April 12, 1853.
My dear Sir,
As I find that the Phebe is not gone from Ahuriri, I have just time to fulfil a desire - which has rapidly grown up during these last few days - of writing to you; sprung, I believe, from a pleasing remembrance of your kind expressions of interest in my welfare when we last met and parted. Now double valuable in the present extreme scarcity of both friends and Counsellors.
I think that I then told you, that I had written fully to the C. M. S. concerning myself - and that I had made up my mind to winter here in my little study - or, rather to remain until I should hear from them: so far, then, has been determined. I have however subsequently seen the Bishop here, and am obliged to think, that I should yet do something more than merely to wait until I hear from England:- that is, if I have the opportunity of doing so. I have often of late revolved in my mind your advice - "to take a run"; and, if I am in time and can obtain one suitable, I think I should be quite ready to do so. Allow me then, my dear sir, to request you to-let me know at an early convenient opportunity:- 1st. whether there are any spare runs still to let out of these your 2 purchased Blocks (excluding Mohaka)? - 2nd. whether you have a speedy prospect
of purchasing more land in this neighbourhood? - 3rd. whether you are of opinion that I might obtain the gift of a small grant of land from the Governor? (I could only afford - at present - to pay for a very small quantity; yet, I think, I could shew certain good reasons why a little might be given; especially if I had youngelf or Sinclair or Cole or any good friend to back me; - 5th. whether Scrip would be received in payment for land hereabouts?
I should greatly prefer being on or near the Sea Coast. An inferior run or neighbourhood would suit me very well; as I have but a few head of cattle, and I do not wish to seek great things;- merely a quiet home with bread to eat. I wish also, to be quite out of the way of both natives and settlers - unless I may yet be privileged with finding a few of the latter with a similar disposition to yourself. I have had some thoughts of one of those little places - called, Onepoto, and Pohatupapa - both S. of Morena's village (Tuingara), and, I believe, unocupied. Also, of seeking some sheltered nook somewhere upon your S. boundary line (Parimahu), and not far from the sea. a And I am thinking of visiting that neighbourhood in about a month or so; although I should prefer first hearing from you. It might, however, suit me better (at first, at least) to put out my cattle, at so much pr. cent of profit than to keep a person to look after them; but I need advice on this
and, indeed, on all my matters. I have again spoken of Scrip, to which I have been lead through aring that Mr. Tollemache is said to have come hither to purchase land with Scrip. Hapuku (I understand from Cranmer, for we have not yet met) and Puhara and Hineipaketia still wish me to go inland to Te Rotoakiwa; but I do not, upon any account, wish to be so near Wi Tipuna and his party; - nor the Bishop's "College Land" - the ground on the Government boundary close to Te Aute having been by him and the Governor selected for this purpose. From the Chief at Tangoio I have also received a handsome offer of a piece of ground if I will move that way. But, whilst I feel their kindness particularly just now when all are against me - I am determined not to accept it. I have already trusted natives too much: served them too faithfully (don't doubt it) - without even once caring for myself; and it is now (if not too late) high time for me to believe that charity should begin at home. I could tell you much if you were here, which I cannot write. I dare to think, that I have been and am greatly ill-used; still it is not for me, who have so foolishly laid myself open, to complain. I did not see the Governor when they were here, although greatly wished to do so; he travelling with (and, I believe, living in the tent of) the Bishop. This was a very untoward circumstance for me; and one which I greatly regretted.
You, my dear Sir, well know how very changeable the Natives are. You will not then be surprized in hearing that, when the great men were here, the Natives (having repeatedly heard that the Bishop and the Governor were coming to "pana" me) were all against me.'1- all loud for "panaing". But when I say all, I must not forget to tell you, that Te Hapuku and Puhara and Hineipaketia were not only against such an atrocity, but made ood orations (I am told) to the Bp. and the Govr. when at Wakatu in my favour. And these 2 men are Heathen, and, in certain sense, my enemies Neither of them accompanied the Bishop and Governor to Ahuriri - at which, I confess, I felt surprized. I also heard that Mr. Alexander very kindly and considerately expressed his just indignation at some of my Native "friends'" proceedings - among whom your travelling companion Takamoana, (whom I had but very lately been again instrumental in recovering from a severe illness) was most conspicuous - as before, for evil. But many secret springs have been worked:- and, as you know, a very small spark is sufficient for a whole magazine of powder.
But I must close or I shall weary you. Mrs. Colenso has not yet left! but we now daily expect the vessel (the Dolphin) by which she is to go; and she will also take the child with her. I shall, consequently, soon be very lonely; and that, too, in a place where every object
necessarily recalls a 1000 unpleasing ideas. Need I say, that a letter, or paper, or anything from a friend will sure to be both acceptable and of service. Mr. and Mrs. Marshall with 2 children (one being Alexander's) left us this morning on their way to Guthrie's, where they intend to redide. We have lately suffered severely from a flood occasioned by a fortnight's heavy rain, which caused us to take refuge in the study - all the premises and garden being greatly under water. The natives too have lost much of their crops. You will have heard, I suppose, of one of Hapuku's wives (Tarewa) having strangled herself very shortly after you left.
I should like, if possible, to have the matter of a future dwelling and run so far settled, as that on your next coming this way we could go thither together and take posession. Though my present house is small, yet it will be more than large enough for us two, if you can on your next visit make it convenient both to call and stay - which I hope you will do.
Ever my dear Sir
Very truly yours,
P. S. Allow me to add, as I know you are intimate with some of the Mission, that I do not wish them, just now, to know of my intentions.